Holy City

The Holy Lands seems to me a far off place oft mentioned in the bible but never experienced in person. Seems as if stories of old abound about the city that once thrived amongst all people under the clouds of heaven. I seem to imagine the followers of Christ going about their way 2000 years ago spreading the message that bears fruit. Indeed it does bear fruit somehow. I want to trod the path of Jesus on his journey of Calvary and the first saints after the descent of the Holy Spirit.

Seems to me a burning frame of mind that I have. I will one day traverse the path trodden within the city of the Holy Lands. Imagine imagine imagine hope, faith and love thrived..........wonderment, courage and bravery sparked. All within the boundaries of the Holy City.

Ode to Fei Fei

You black melting eyes grinned for the camera of your mistress and she captured a good laughing picture of you. At 2 months, you were the racing bundle of energy, running everyone ragged to ground. Although you were called Fei Fei (Fat Fat), you were a mischievous lean and spiry bundle of joy.

On the fateful day, you ran out the gate and onto the path of the car. Mistress and I think the whole world screamed. No more to hear your excited and happy barks of joy. No more were you to be.

Fei Fei, gone to puppy heaven. You will be sorely missed.

Chinese New Year - The Dragon Year

The dragon year has finally roared in with a resounding din of firecrackers. For the Chinese, the year 2012, officially starts today. As family members rush home for the reunion dinner, the scene in my own is one of the quiet. But all the family members are right here. The star of the show is off course dear mum, who has in her quiet way taken centre stage. Quiet from necessity and from need.

Dragon year comes with a roar but here I am contemplating the silence of the day. Calls were made to many friends wishing them Cong Xi Cong Xi. It is nice to hear all of their voices. All still the same old chums, all a year older and a year wiser or a year ethereal.

Thoughts turn to resolutions....to be wiser.....not to lose very easily .lost temper.....to be kinder.....to be mature (unfortunately the child in me begs to differ).......and not to dream too much (but dreams will persist and dreams will with hope become the real thing)....to work harder.....to be more idealistic (in this too real world)......and to be loved (there lies another tale)

God be merciful, God be loving and God be true.

Cong Xi Fa Chai everyone!

Let the children come to me.

A poignant and my favourite verse in the bible, I have often wondered how we can be as little children to meet our Lord. What actually does he means "as children we have to be to enter the Kingdom of God"? Knowing as we do, that as grown men and women, the actions and the decisions we make in our lives are too adult like, how then are we able to follow this very calling of God?

Over the past few months, the decisions and thoughts I have had and made, seemed to me, a betrayal of my ideal self. To be as a little child, childlike. And yet I do wonder, I still keep the prayers that I have had as a child and my thoughts still veer towards the ideal and my truths. To overcome the ways of the adult world, I have turned inward, not a very easy thing to do.

And yet, the things I aim for, the ambitions I have.....will lead towards the light that God has shone on our path. My path that is strewn with many idealistic dreams.

Onwards I say........and onwards I go.

Mother Mary

Mary the mother of God. Immaculate Conception, Mother of all of us. How Jesus gave her to us with his dying breath. So benevolent and so loving our Lord Jesus is. And Mary, mother of God did her work well.

Mother intercessor and mother divine. My thoughts on you is that God has upheld you and has promoted you to a status, many will not say but in the heart feels deeply so. As do I.

But you, Mother of Jesus and mother of us here on earth. Listen to our prayers and listen to our needs. Send you prayers and intercessions to the ears of our Lord God, the prayers of your earthly children.

As I the lisping child, so tenderly call your name, Mother, you know of my needs, my earthly mother is crippled here, so I look to you now heavenly mother to play the role that once my own mum, who is my rock played.

Beloved Mother, beloved servant of God. I call to thee as a child of thee.

The Disciples

Sometimes I wondered during the Passion why all of Lord Jesus's disciples disappeared when he needed them most. Seems a bit odd that the ones that Jesus had full faith in and trusted them with his very life should be found wanting this way. These were the disciples that would found the first Christians in the Holy City.

And yet you have to think of the time, when Jesus was betrayed. Spies and the unknowing were going about betraying the followers of Jesus left and right. You would think that the Sanhedrin would stop at only Jesus? No, they wanted to catch all of the followers of Jesus and probably they would have gone the way of Jesus too.

So they hid. Jesus gave them stern orders. "You must hide yourselves or how will you protect the followers of Christ?" Even though greatly distressed,they followed his words to the letter. Hid they did to save the future of the faith. But I have this gut feeling that, they followed Jesus through every step of his passion, hidden but always giving encouragement to their Master...."Master we are with you, hidden yes, but with you every step of the way"

Poor Peter couldn't help himself. Wanting to be with his Master every step of the way, he disguised himself and stood in the courtyard...his agonising glances towards his Lord and Master. When the servant girl recognised him, he had to deny that he was a disciple of Jesus. Much grief it gave him, until the 3rd denial, he wept bitter tears of not being able to tell to the world, "Yes, I am one of the 12 disciples"

And yet, they had to do so. As Jesus said, "Not one of you will be lost". And so not one of the disciples and not one of the followers of Christ were lost to the murderous threats of the jealous Sanhedrin.

God of Creation

I can barely recollect what I have said of this issue. In the darkness of my room, all seemed so easy, words easily tripped from my mind at what God actually is.

He is a Creator God, he creates so to speak creation on every planet that abounded in the universe. In my mind's eye, I envisioned how God went throughout every part of the universe seeding and populating with creation. Every planet that bore the ingredients of creating life, he populated. However once he created, he let the planet be to propagate itself over time and millenia creating it's history and it's destiny. Everytime he could see the world destroyed. And he learned and he learned, putting his lessons to good use when he next created his new creation on a new planet.

God is a Creator God and a Learning God. He learned from his observations and strived to improve on his next creation. We, the Earth are a part of the cycle of creation. Are we the last creation of God? For we, the people have looked towards the heavens and have found no beings in the universe that lives like we do. We are pretty much alone now, cause we are the last of God's creation.

Hard for me even to understand. But I said it this way, more to say though but I leave this as thus. God allows us to propagate our future. He has given us conscious thought and hence a sense of responsibility. We must live wisely. Save our planet from our own destruction. We are actually God's last creation.

Garden of Eden

God indeed has defined the boundaries of knowledge. And yet we do ask what actually is the Garden of Eden? Is it really a place or a garden that existed in the heavens above? Or is this one of the places of paradise here on earth? We also know of the Tree of Good and Evil that existed there in the Garden.

Was God really a gardener in the heavens above? And why did such a tree exist? My personal thoughts on this was that the Garden of Eden was actually a place where knowledge thrived. Good knowledge. The knowledge of creation and of advancement.

Knowledge thrived in the Garden of Eden. It is where all learnings and all goodness abounded. The angels and the saints rejoiced at such an Eden. God's knowledge, God's goodness existed there.

Knowledge thrived at the dawn of time. God's knowledge.

God God Why have thou forsaken me?

The words that Jesus uttered when he suffered so grievously on the cross. Scholars have always attempted to define what actually that Lord Jesus meant when he uttered this words when he suffered on the cross.

Hence my take on the issue. Imagine yourself suffering so immensely that every ounce of strength was being compelled from the body to just survive. Or to die for the faith in martyrdom.

I believe that God the Father was so agonised, so broken and so in grief that he looked away in such utter sorrow from the sufferings of his only son. Jesus looking towards his Father who was so sorrowful, cried out "Father.....do not forsake me...." What he actually meant was to tell his Father, "Don't look away in sorrow, look towards me, give me strength to suffer this agony, the Passion which I must undertake. To attain and go through. God's reaction was swift. He looked back immediately towards his son. And hence sending his love, his urgings, his hopes towards his son.

Jesus did not say that God has abandoned him. He only told his Father not to look away in grief, but to look towards him and give him strength to suffer his Passion on the Cross.

Lord Jesus, Brother Jesus of the Cross. Holy God so suffered for his people.

The Holy Trinity

I have often always wondered how the thoughts of the trinity should be explained. It was always the domain of those who philosophized. Yet, let me pen my own thoughts on the Holy Trinity.

One God in Three and Three Gods in One.

How does one explain the seeming paradox that goes against the laws of the maths as I wont to read in the book that said, such was an impossibility.

Is God to be governed by the laws of Maths? I sincerely doubt so. Hence my take on the concept that the Trinity longs to bring forth.

God the Father - A being so powerful, so immense, so holy, that man will die if he looks on the face on God. Yet he is in the quiet wind, the voice, the one that people long to listen over, to fight for, to search for and to look for. As I have hoped for, looked for and searched for.

God the Son - He is part of the Father and hence God's flesh taken from him to fashion the son. Proud father was, happy son was. One in one, one of the being

God the Holy Spirit. Thunder....Lighting....Quiet.....Swift.....of the Spirit. It is God's Light that

shine in the world and shines in the hearts and souls of all that believe.

God himself, the son beget of the flesh and the Holy Spirit beget of God's Light

And so it is true and so I believe, so immensely.

Dreams of Annas........

To know what dreams mean to the ones that yearn to understand. We stand at the threshold of a meaningful journey into the depths of the soul. Dreams lead us onwards towards a memory that is untold in reality but dared only to be lived in the subconscious mind.

I remember of a past or I yearn to remember it. I recall when I go deeper of individuals that once lived within the soul. Annas was one named so that I recall. A figure of sadness and woe, a figure atoning for a wrong she has no power over. Poor Annas, to traverse time and space, living to forget and living to atone. Soon Annas will have a great journey and fight on her hands. She intends to go to the wintry depths of Hades to search for ones lost. I shudder to think of the raging fight she has on her hands. Yet she is determined and she will rage and war and fight for the truth of those lambs that were lost though by no means of their true faults. She will fight towards greater truth and greater mercy.

Hence dreams for me leads to an awakening. I hope for something of an adventure through where the soul leads the hearts. Onwards I say. Onwards I hope.